The funeral is over. We laid you ‘to rest’.
On the edge of a mountain,in your Sunday best
We covered your grave with your favorite flowers
The wake went on ’til the early hours.
We played all of your music. We laughed,we cried.
But I still cant comprehend that you’re gone. You died.
I look at your pictures,see you smile
I feel nothing but an empty space inside.
Life carries on as it did before
I don’t feel that I wont see you anymore
I’ve been out shopping,visiting Mam
I haven’t fallen apart,I feel so calm
Yesterday,I went to your grave
Friends said I was so strong,so brave
But when I looked down at the mound of earth
At the cross with your name on,the date of your death
I still felt nothing,no sadness no grief
No thoughts that your death was a happy release
I looked down from the mountain on a glorious day
And still didn’t believe that you’d gone away
I went to your house,to your family
We sat in your kitchen for a cup of tea
We had a laugh and a bit of a chat
Talking about this and that
It wasn’t the same without you there
I wished that you were just upstairs
Where I could lie beside you on your bed
And we’d chat about the books we read
About books that someday we would write
Or just about what was on telly last night
I looked up at your window as I was leaving
Knowing you weren’t there,still not believing
That I would never see you again
I’m not ready yet to deal with that pain
So for now I’ll carry on like before
Not knowing where you really are
But I know that one day,I’ll realise
That you’re really gone. You really died.